I couldn't sleep much last night. Tonight is already half past, and I am still at the office, finishing quarterly reports, catching up on bills, and payroll for the week. Always lots to do!
Of course, I wonder what Elder Harr is up to, hoping with ALL my heart he is fully engaged and giving 110%! Makes me consider, what I need to do to give 110%, to dedicate my life to the mission I was sent here to fulfill. Since we left the MTC, the contractions have honestly increased substantially! This little one in heaven is watching, knowing that my heart needs her here to hug! I still have about 5 weeks before she will be fully developed and ready to make her debut here on earth. I got up with Jakob at midnight, and finally just got up about 2 a.m. and pulled out my own copy of Preach My Gospel which Elder Harr knows well already but now is dedicating lots of time to learning in Chinese! I studied the chapter on Wise Use of Time and Goal Setting for a couple of hours. What is my purpose as mom, wife, daughter, sister? What are the "Key Indicators" that I should be monitoring and measuring so that my life is improving?
Today has been rather full. I did reading lessons with Jr. team. Jakob hasn't been feeling great, I read him stories, and held him as others read to us, until he drifted off to sleep in my arms! Tender moments I didn't take for granted! He has had a runny nose today - another Tender Mercy that NO ONE has been sick for the past three months as we played and worked really hard together! Today there are three not feeling good - Chandler, Jakob, and Sara. Chandler needs to get better quick - he leaves Saturday morning at 2:00 a.m. for the National Jamboree! Please help him Father! Regular routine demands have out weighed my desire to study and outline what changes I want to implement, but I'm thinking, weighing, considering many!
I am so grateful for "Goodly Parents!" I love talking to them! I got a tender, loving call from my Dad today! He knew that I needed a hug and encouragement. He reminded me that my hormones are stuck on a roller coaster (thanks to this new little one) and that I should really do my best to not get upset about things easily! I certainly haven't raised my voice, that is not the upset - he meant the sobbing. I think I have done pretty well at controlling the sobbing, mostly just weeping when around others, but my dear Bradley knows that I have had several sob sessions when I get tired at night! I have cried myself to sleep several nights in a row. Maybe it's easier to just not go to bed (it's now 12:35 a.m.). I think just realizing that my emotions are out of control helps me to realize the world is not coming down around me! My boys were "foreordained" to serve the Lord! I wrote a letter to my little Jed the first Sunday of his life, upon returning from a missionary farewell, knowing that this time would come. Here it is, I wouldn't stop it if I could. I am grateful he is going!!
Saturday Chandler leaves early, and then it's the 24th of July - Pioneer day here in Utah! Fun day! We have a ward breakfast, parade, games at the park, and then have been invited to the Winchester Hills Barbecue hosted by Cheryl that night. Not sure we will go, we have been talking about inviting neighbors over. I am so grateful for the brave, valiant Pioneers who left all they had to come to Utah for the Church. Thank you!
Of course, I wonder what Elder Harr is up to, hoping with ALL my heart he is fully engaged and giving 110%! Makes me consider, what I need to do to give 110%, to dedicate my life to the mission I was sent here to fulfill. Since we left the MTC, the contractions have honestly increased substantially! This little one in heaven is watching, knowing that my heart needs her here to hug! I still have about 5 weeks before she will be fully developed and ready to make her debut here on earth. I got up with Jakob at midnight, and finally just got up about 2 a.m. and pulled out my own copy of Preach My Gospel which Elder Harr knows well already but now is dedicating lots of time to learning in Chinese! I studied the chapter on Wise Use of Time and Goal Setting for a couple of hours. What is my purpose as mom, wife, daughter, sister? What are the "Key Indicators" that I should be monitoring and measuring so that my life is improving?
Today has been rather full. I did reading lessons with Jr. team. Jakob hasn't been feeling great, I read him stories, and held him as others read to us, until he drifted off to sleep in my arms! Tender moments I didn't take for granted! He has had a runny nose today - another Tender Mercy that NO ONE has been sick for the past three months as we played and worked really hard together! Today there are three not feeling good - Chandler, Jakob, and Sara. Chandler needs to get better quick - he leaves Saturday morning at 2:00 a.m. for the National Jamboree! Please help him Father! Regular routine demands have out weighed my desire to study and outline what changes I want to implement, but I'm thinking, weighing, considering many!
I am so grateful for "Goodly Parents!" I love talking to them! I got a tender, loving call from my Dad today! He knew that I needed a hug and encouragement. He reminded me that my hormones are stuck on a roller coaster (thanks to this new little one) and that I should really do my best to not get upset about things easily! I certainly haven't raised my voice, that is not the upset - he meant the sobbing. I think I have done pretty well at controlling the sobbing, mostly just weeping when around others, but my dear Bradley knows that I have had several sob sessions when I get tired at night! I have cried myself to sleep several nights in a row. Maybe it's easier to just not go to bed (it's now 12:35 a.m.). I think just realizing that my emotions are out of control helps me to realize the world is not coming down around me! My boys were "foreordained" to serve the Lord! I wrote a letter to my little Jed the first Sunday of his life, upon returning from a missionary farewell, knowing that this time would come. Here it is, I wouldn't stop it if I could. I am grateful he is going!!
Saturday Chandler leaves early, and then it's the 24th of July - Pioneer day here in Utah! Fun day! We have a ward breakfast, parade, games at the park, and then have been invited to the Winchester Hills Barbecue hosted by Cheryl that night. Not sure we will go, we have been talking about inviting neighbors over. I am so grateful for the brave, valiant Pioneers who left all they had to come to Utah for the Church. Thank you!