Life has a way of bustling by without much slowing down. I am so grateful to have the blessing of being the wife of Mr. B Harr, mother to five amazing sons, and 4 fabulous daughters! I am so blessed!
Today I saw the hand of God in my life in the protection we received and help from Heavenly help. A couple weeks ago in our stake Youth fireside, President Sandvick shared the scripture in 2 Kings which says that there are more that be with us than those that be with them. I have often felt that blessing, especially in the last couple of weeks. Today in particular I was concerned about being above to complete the set ups we needed to support all the events we had promised. Problems with the photobooth computer further complicated that and J felt he needed to stay home and continue to work on solving that issue so S and I were on our own to set up. Wew. We did it!
Then later, we were offered some 30' trusses from a house being built in our neighborhood that had them extra, and a couple slightly damaged. We didn't know how to load them. B was at the stake center, preparing for stake conference next week following the worldwide broadcast about Teaching in the Savior's Way. It was fabulous! I am grateful to teach often, and to belong to this true church that seeks to model the life of our Savior. Anyway, B was not home to help us, but S and S and J and I set out with the littles to try and load these trusses that are 30' x 20' onto our trailer. That is big!!! I was constantly praying, often out loud that we would not damage any equipment or get hurt by these huge structures that we were trying to move two blocks. We made it with heavenly help holding the tops of those trusses! 
I have had a few struggles in the past couple days with feelings of darkness. In particular yesterday afternoon I was upset about something trivial at the office, and B struggled because it is regards to employee issues that are larger than this one issue but all are important and relationship issues with regards to money. I am so grateful for him. He is so patient and loving. I seem to be haunted by opinions of my parents, even though as B said, I have lived with him for 27 years, and them only the first 19. Why do I still care about the mean things they said and did? I don't know but there are some days that it overpowers me. Yesterday was one of those. I am so grateful that B cares enough to seek me out, showing kindness and love. It hasn't happened very often, but yesterday was one of the few. I want these spells to end completely. I want to identify the source of those disturbing feelings and cast them out by the power of my Savior who loves me!
I am grateful for kindness and love from my Savior and dear B! Thank you gentlemen!
Fasting for our J to be prepared and guided as he studies and takes the LSAT on Dec 2nd. and for the future of our country.
Much love.
Marta