Tonight I am alone. Brad is in Arizona for training. I have been worried about money for a bit. We had a few checks overdraw our account recently. I woke worried that I had missed the payment deadline for our loan at Zions. I wandered downstairs after having fallen asleep with Stephen to check the doors and turn off the lights. We got home late from helping Brinley answer her date with Tyler to Jr. Prom this weekend, and I carried Stephen up to his bed. I laid down with him, and fell asleep for a bit.
As I turned on my computer, I was prompted to open LDS.org and found the new video of the Savior turning water to wine at the wedding feast. What do we learn from this? I see that the servant is instructed by the Lord quietly to do somethings, fill the vessels, and pour for the master of the wedding. He doesn't hesitate. He does as the Lord whispers.
I then turned to my account for which I had sat down here. I have reason to be worried. Yes, there are funds there sufficient to cover the payment, but only just barely. Brad is out of town for the day tomorrow, so I will not have the ability to add funds to our operating account. I worried, and decided I would not make the payment, I would wait until he returns. No, the prompting came, make the payment. I argued in my head, but how is that listening to the prompting. I was prompted to do it. So I did make the payment.
Then I turned to another article on the church website, and as I was reading, scrolled to this message shared with MTC Mission Presidents:
As I turned on my computer, I was prompted to open LDS.org and found the new video of the Savior turning water to wine at the wedding feast. What do we learn from this? I see that the servant is instructed by the Lord quietly to do somethings, fill the vessels, and pour for the master of the wedding. He doesn't hesitate. He does as the Lord whispers.
I then turned to my account for which I had sat down here. I have reason to be worried. Yes, there are funds there sufficient to cover the payment, but only just barely. Brad is out of town for the day tomorrow, so I will not have the ability to add funds to our operating account. I worried, and decided I would not make the payment, I would wait until he returns. No, the prompting came, make the payment. I argued in my head, but how is that listening to the prompting. I was prompted to do it. So I did make the payment.
Then I turned to another article on the church website, and as I was reading, scrolled to this message shared with MTC Mission Presidents:
I have been praying for $100k in extra fees. We have a loan out for new construction in Mesquite. We have had a loss of about $30k that the restaurant in our building owes us, and we have not been paid since June for that space. It is a burden to have to make the payments, while trying to be kind to them. It is a hardship and difficult. Yet, we feel we should not be mean. They decided to close their doors on Feb 1st. So today the space is empty. We are praying for a good tenant that will be reliable in their rent. I know prayers are answered. Oh Father, please help us.
So tonight, I Trust in the Lord. I made the payment. I Trust he knows and will provide. I am grateful to be a Mom to the beautiful people I have been blessed to bring to this earth. Each one is so precious. I witness miracles! Today a miracle was the package being delivered to our Elder Harr, who is in the Provo MTC at this hour but will depart in some 6 hours to serve the Lord in Panama. Oh, Father, these fiscal difficulties are really of naught in compared with the miracle of the righteous choices of my family! I know in whom I can trust! Thank Thee for the blessings of Abraham that in my seed shall all the nations of the world be blessed! Now we spread to South America with my seed. I am so grateful that as we read today in Alma 36 I believe, the chapter opened and closed with the admonition - If ye keep the commandments ye shall prosper in the land. We strive to keep the commandments. We desire to put our complete trust in our Savior. We want to walk on water. Please help us, Father, to get out of debt. I will Trust in Thee. I will move carefully, trying not to spend money that I don't have but Trusting when we are prompted to move forward with office space in Mesquite, and with payments tonight. I Trust in Thee.
How did that servant feel when having just filled the vessel with water, poured it to the master, to see the wine pour out. I know these miracles happen today.
Alma 36:3 "Whosoever shall put their trust in God shall be supported in their trials, and their troubles, and their afflictions, and shall be lifted up at the last day."
I know that my Savior carries me through the loneliness of no family. I know that He knows this is hard. I know that I have been told by Bishops (2), Presidents (2), counselors that the answer is not to just return and put up with their meanness. I have been counseled to be cautious. To go where it is safe. I know my Savior will carry me through. I know that He knows my every need, and provides for me in every way. Thank you Savior and Father!
Going forward, Trusting in Him without knowing how the miracles will happen, but not waiting to see the fruits, moving forward to pour the wine and believing that He knows what He is prompting us to do. Thank you Father and Savior!